(Originally posted on January 29, 2015 on a previous blog)

Dear God,

You are King of kings, and Lord of lords.  You are the Great I Am.  You are the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.  Lord you are my everything and I thank you for everything you have ever done for me and will do for me.  I am nothing and You are everything.  Lord I know You know what is best for me and give me only what I can handle, but I feel like I am drowning.  I have felt like I am trying to serve You the best that I can and I feel so alone.  I know that I will come out knowing You in a way that I didn’t before, but right now I feel alone.  I wish that I could here your voice.  Funny thing is that if You could speak to me, You would probably scold me for what I have done wrong, not because Your mean, but because You are holy.  Lord just over 15 years ago, I believe You gave me a vision.  I said at that point that I didn’t know if You gave it to me so I could do it, or to tell someone else.  I knew that without you I could not do it.  So I patiently waited.  And to my fault, I forgot about it.  I apologize for that.  But just over a year ago, You reminded me about this vision.  I just came across something that either will help me accomplish this or allow me to pass it along to someone else.  It is up to You.  I feel trapped in my present situation, and I cry out to You.  I am willing to stay where You have me, or I am willing to go and do Your work.  You know it my heart has always been to do Your work.  Lord, I give You my all and I give You my life.  Take it, it is Yours to do with how You see fit.  I will obey.  I will follow and I will go, if that is what You decide.  I love You Lord.  Lord grant me the peace and perseverance and faith and trust to do what You call me to do. In Your Son’s saving and holy name, I say